Everyone else seems to have it together. Why can’t you just get yourself together? It doesn’t even make sense to feel this way. You have no real reasons for feeling down but no amount of praying takes it away. That induces guilt. Because isn’t prayer supposed to take it all away? Sometimes you even question if your faith is real. Because if it was, then you wouldn’t be struggling so much.
The truth is that you’re not alone. There are others silently suffering as well. Not sure it will make you feel any better but know that depression strikes people from all walks of life…yes, even those who have faith in God. I bet it’s an even bigger problem than you think because the enemy has people right where he wants them—feeling alone.
Church almost makes it worse. You know you should go, even those days you don’t feel like it, but then you have to pretend that everything is fine. You paste on the smile and respond with “Great!” when asked how you’re doing. What would be the worst thing to happen if you finally got honest? There’s that fear of rejection and of judgment, I get that. Yet what if by sharing your struggles, it opened up the opportunity for someone to pray with you? To show they care? To be that person who stands by your side?
Then there’s the whole shame thing. How can you even call yourself a believer? Where is the joy of the Lord? Yet our faith isn’t based on our strength. In fact, it’s in our weakness that God makes us strong. Shame is a lie. The truth is that you are an imperfect person who is being sanctified day-by-day. Becoming holy isn’t an event…it’s a process. Don’t let shame become bigger than God’s grace.
Remember that while your struggle might be depression, others have their own vices. We’re all sinners. We all face challenges. We all live in a fallen world. Your issue isn’t worse than someone else’s. You’re not any less a Christian than the person sitting next to you in the pew. Don’t let anyone tell you different. You might feel depressed but God hasn’t counted you out.
Depression doesn’t have to be a life sentence. You can gain freedom. Jesus is the key that unlocks the prison door.